Where I am at....

It has been 3 months and 2 weeks since I finished school.....2 months since I passed my CRT exam and got my work permit......3 weeks since I got my California License to work as a Respiratory Therapist......3 months and 2 weeks since my dad was diagnosed with Cancer......4 weeks since he finished the treatment for it......and where am I?

Still in the same place I was 3 months and 2 weeks ago......nowhere....and where does all this get me....nowhere.

Sometimes I don't understand why I'm still in the same place. I've been applying for jobs like crazy, why have I not gotten any call backs? Am I not good enough? Did I just not get lucky like the others that I finished school with? I just don't get it. I know my stuff, I know what I'm doing, I'm gonna be one of the best therapist that a hospital can have. I have a passion for it. I can relate to the patients....its where I need to be and what I need to be doing....but yet I'm stuck here in a rut....not going anywhere....I don't get it.

I wish things would have gone differently the past few months. I know I'm selfish...but what about me....why can't things be going my way?? I've worked hard to get where I'm at and now I'm getting discourage because the only replys I get from the apps I have submitted are the ones that say "sorry you don't have enough experience". Well damn...how am I gonna get experience if no body will hire me?? I'm just so frustrated right now with life...I have no idea where it is going....and I don't like it!!

So where am I at............